birthday [^]

,bloggie, yesterday i went to burger n' grill to celebrate my birthday. actually my birthday is on saturday but i celebrate it on sunday. thanks to kitsep who are part of my life to came to my birthday ceremony, but i was sad because gesha, omay, and keisya couldn't come. i love you guys, always..

it's all gonna be fun

today i got closer and closer with my classmates. they are nice people. then i have another friend, called nana, she's very funny and friendly. i got my all new books and taking photo for ID card last noon. the books are very very heavy. after school, keisya, hadyan, and I went to my previous school, al-azhar BSD. i was very shy to enter that school with my new uniform. there, i met several friends but my lovely ojel wasn't there. she already go home at that time. when i was walking to my school building, i met aya and i hugged her tightly. huhuhu i miss her so much. after that i went home and sleep.

waiting during photo taking and getting books

my classmates

nabila, me, vinda

it's all gonna be fun bloggie and i like it..

first day at (new) school

first i'm very exciting after i arrived in my new school.
jadi tuh ya gue berangkat ikut kakak gue yang udah jemput jam setengah 7, padahal sekolahannya tuh baru masuk jam 7.15. nyampe sana kaya orang ling-lung gitu deh. mana (my best) ecaaa belom dateng. vinda, my first friend in that school, hadn't arrive yet. yaudah deh cuma keliling aja. trus ngumpul di hall, dengerin orang-orang ngomong, ke kelas, istirahat, oh iyaaa pas istirahat sumpah gue kaya orang bego. gue tuh laper banget ya tapi disamping malu, gue gak ngerti cara beli nya. eh ada si dzimar lewat, nanya dia deh akhirnya. olaaaaaaa i ate. nah pas makan ada kumpulan angkatan gue gitu deh yaudah deh akhirnya bareng and now i have many friends there. i like to meet new people. oh iyaaa ada satu lagi temen sekelas gue namanya nabila. she's kind, absolutely. later i will show their face.

naah pas nyampe rumah gue langsung makan, minum obat, langsung tidur. i was ill bloggie. huhu gak enak bangett. gue baru ngerasain sakit gara-gara (mungkin) mikirin sesuatu, parno sama sesuatu. i hope this feeling will be end soon.

so deep of hurt

bloggie..
gimana rasanya kalo kita dijauhkan sama orang yang kita sayang? entah itu gara-gara keadaan ataupun paksaan. sakit yang sangat dalam. apalagi kalo kita sadar bahwa kita udah sangat bisa menyayangi orang itu kembali? kenapa gak dulu aja kejadian ini terjadi? disaat gue udah bisa ngelepas dan jauh dari orang yang gue sayang. sekarang gue bingung banget harus ngelakuin apa. mungkin sekarang kita harus ngejauh untuk sementara, tapi suatu saat nanti, disaat kita udah bisa nunjukkin ke "mereka" dan buat "mereka" bangga, kita bisa ngelakuin apa aja yang kita mau. be patient ya. as you know, tangan gue gak berenti gemeteran dari tadi. sampe sekarang juga, kenapa ya? apa mungkin karena gue takut? takut akan apa yang akan terjadi besok-besok? apa gue harus nepatin janji gue? atau malah ngelanggar? i'm falling to the deepest part and know i'm trying to keep smile.

Smile
though your heart is aching,
Smile
Even though it's breaking,
When there are clouds in the sky- You'll get by,
If you
Smile through your fear and sorrow,
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through- For you.
Light up your face with gladness,
Hide every trace of sadness,
Although a tear may be ever so near,
That's the time you must keep on trying,
Smile- What's the use of crying,
You'll find that life is still worthwhile,
If you just smile.

smile-charlie chaplin

my last holiday weekend

helloooo bloggie, yesterday, i went to itc kuningan ambasador with my friend, dinda, with trans bsd. i'm looking for skirt buuuuuuut there wasn't any skirt i like so i just bought opaque and a few of accessories. at night, i went to senayan city with my family for eating at takigawa, japanese food, and i found a pair cute flat shoes then i bought it. todaaaaaaay, i came to daughter's my father's friend wedding. do you get it? (jadi tuh anak temen bokap gue nikah) and do you know what? i'm really love eyeliner. haha. after that i went to mayestik.
aaaah susah banget pake bahasa inggris. hahaha dasar gue udik. jadi yah tadi tuh pas di mayestik gue kan pake kebaya modern gitu sama legging, yaaaa wajar aja abis kondangan, and i didn't bring any t-shirt. jadi yaaa gue pake baju kayak gitu dengan alas kaki sepasang sendal hotel. aduh malu sih tadi tapi yasuuuud laaaaaah gak ada yang kenal gue ini. i'm looking for black tile dan tadi pas lewat situ yaudah deh mampir. FYI, i want to make something with my hands. do you want to know? just stay tunned here..




these are few accessories which i bought in ITC kuningan.
goodbye, xoxo clara :p

my inspiration

ooooooooooooh my... they are my inspiration. they are soo cool and i like them very very much. can i be like them? haha i wish !

irina lazareanu

cory kennedy

craziest wish

well, um, bloggie do you know that i want to meet someone? i know it is too late because he's dead now. yeeeeeeeeess you're right. i want to meet michael jackson. haha i know it is crazy but i really want to meet him. i just can pray for him to get best place in there. may Allah bless him. thanks because he made many wonderful things in this world especially for children. i very like your song jacko.

heal the world

this song is succeed make me crying. this song is sang by the king of pop, and this song remembered me to someone who i really want to meet.
when i lying my head on his shoulder, he sang this song. i really miss him.

"Heal the world
Make it a better place
For you and for me and the entire human race
There are people dying
If you care enough for the living
Make a better place for
You and for me"

Heal the World-Michael Jackon

talking along the night

bloggie...
do you know i meet someone that he's different than another guy?
yap i met him in semarang, he is my cousin's friend. when i had trip in semarang and around it, he always follow us.

so this is the story,
jadi kan gue pulang dari semarang hari senin pagi jam setengah 8, nah malemnya tuh baru pulang dari jogja jam 11an, abis itu ada yang sms gue. from: dio. he is my cousin. naaaaaaah tapi tuh yang sms temen sodara gue, bilang kalo besok pagi jangan lupa balikin dompet dia soalnya waktu di jogja dia nitip dompet. nyampe rumah disana. gue disuruh makan sama tante, tapi karena udah malem gue maleess banget. trus sodara gue yang cewek yang tidur sekamar sama gue juga lagi ada program diet gitu deeeeeeeh jadinya dia juga males makan. nah gue keluar kamar buat ngasih dompet temen sodara gue sama obat sodara gue pas sodara gue yang cewek, astri, lagi solat. pas nyampe di kamar dio, gue nyerahin semua barang-barang itu dan gue duduk dulu di kursi tapi bisa di panjangin gitu buat tidur, apa deh tuh namanya. trus temen sodara gue, sebut aja mr. i, ngajak gue buat nemenin dia makan. tadinya gue males makan tapi gara-gara disuruh nemenin dia jadinya gue ikutaan deeeeh. jam 12an gue, astri, dan mr. i baru turun ke bawah buat makan. astri langsung ke kamar soalnya dia gak makan, sebenernya gue juga gak makan sih tapi ngikut aja. pas mau makan ternyata mbaknya lagi bikin nasi, so we must to wait the rice. gue ngajak dia cerita-cerita gitu trus kata dia "cerita-cerita di atas aja yuk !" nah itu gue kira di kamar dio secara kamar di di atas, tapi ternyata enggak. kita naik ke lantai 3, disana ternyata ada kursi 4 sama meja 1. i'm so surprised.

gue baru tau rumah sodara gue ada tempat kaya gitu. view nya tuh baguuuuuuuuuuuuuss banget. beneran, gak boong deh. niatnya sih nunggu nasi jadi, kita cerita banyaaak banget sampe gak kerasa pas turun, pas mau makan tuh udah jam setengah 3. gue kira jam 2.10, mr. i ngira jam setengah 2. haha gak ada yang bener. abis itu kita ngambil makan dan makan di lantai 3 itu. baru pertama kali ya gue makan jam setengah 3, sama cowok, dan there was a great view. yang paling gue suka tuh city light nya. setelah makan, ngobrol-ngobrol lagi sampe jam 4. yaudah deh tanggung kan subuhan, gue sama mr. i ke kamar dio deh. tadi kan ada kursi yang bisa dipanjangin, nah gue tidur-tiduran disitu, kalo mr. i melintang gitu tidurannya, kalo gue memanjang. jam setengah 5 gue bangun sama mr. i trus solat subuh berjamaah deh. abis itu gue balik ke kamar, trus tidur sampe jam 6.15. tadinya gue mau ke bandara dianterin mr. i naik motor tapi pas gue udah masuk mobil, udah mau keluar rumah, mr. i baru keluar dari dalem rumah. huhu sediiiiiiihh ;(

trus ya pas di jalan gue nyoba sms tapi gak bisa-bisa soalnya nomer dia belom gue save jadi pake ingatan gue. gue udah yang mau nangis gitu. gue telp yang gak terdaftar, huuuuaaaaaaaaaaaaaa gimanaaa doong? naaaaaah pas di bandara pas lagi mau ke waiting room, ada sms dari nomer gitu, gak tau gue nomer siapa but he's mr. i. oooh my goooood i'm very exciting as you know. dia bilang maaf tadi gak jadi nganter, katany dia ngerasa bersalah gitu. hehehehehe gue gak bisa berenti senyam-senyum waktu itu. akhirnya smsan deh sampe sekarang.

but bloggie, gue gakmau hubungan gue sama dia lebih dari temen. dia itu enak banget di ajak ngobrol, suka nasehatin gue, seru, kocak, lucu banget, dan gue gakmau kehilangan orang yang menurut gue, he isn't another jerk. adalah perasaan buat ngejadiin dia lebih dari sekedar temen tapi mungkin gak sekarang. gue gakmau jadian sama orang yang cuma pdkt sehari dua hari atau seminggu. gue takut kecewa lagi. jadi yaaa sekarang buat hubungan baik dulu aja sama mr. i, toh kalo udah tepat, semuanya juga bakal berubah.

FYI, dia tuh masuk kuliah taun ini and guess what? dia kuliah di jakarta......tapi kalo dia gak keterima di UGM. hehe gaktau gue jahat atau apa ya tapi gue berdoa semoga dia gak keterima di jogja, hehe i'm sorry mr. i. huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i'm so glad to meet you.

almost the same

hey bloggie..
kenapa yah sekarang gue bener-bener males berurusan sama yang namanya COWOK ?

gak bisa yah mereka mikir pake otak? gak bisa yah mereka mikirin perasaan cewek? lo kira cewek kayak boneka yang bisa dimainin? cewek tuh gak kayak cowok yang gak punya hati, otak, sama perasaan. ternyata gue tau cowok sama aja. jerk

holi-holidaaay

helloooooooo hari ini hari kedua di Semarang. jadi gini awalnya mau ke semarang tuh cuma iseng. dulu tuh gak tau ada angin apa pengen nyoba foto-foto dan ternyata sodara gue bisa fotografi. yaudah minta ajarin aja deh tapi masih yang pengenalan gitu. trus ternyata dia dan gurunya cs bikin sekolah fotografi gitu di semarang. nah kemaren pas di bandung itu, sodara gue ngasih tau dan akhirnya jalan deh gue ke semarang.

dan tadi tuh mulai belajarnya tapi baru theory selama 3 jam. huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah ngantuk+bosen+laper nyampur deh jadi satu. mana sekelas cuma berdua, gue dan sodara gue aja. for youth info, ternyata di sini tuh bioskopnya cuma ada film indonesia sama TRANSFORMER doang. padahal tadinya mau nonton 17 again sama drag me to hell (aduh ketinggalan jaman banget gak sih gue belom nonton tuh 2 film?) jadinya besok nih mau nonton transformer aja (jangan ngetawain gara-gara gue belom nonton itu -__-)

wish this vacation will make me happy for a moment
bye bloggie. muah